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Thursday, June 11th, 2009
6:06 pm	NEVER AGAIN never do i feel rested, or at home,anywhere, this earth has rubbed me dry and i have no place to rest even in a home, a warm bed i am restless and hell bound, i feel like shit everyday, i feel all the pain of the world, everyday, the war and rage of bombs bursting on children and people beign raped everyday, fucking cheap ass shit life everyday fucking nothing! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 10th, 2008
2:16 am	poverty ,sucks theres many of things that can be said of my life,like living in a cell with thin wall's,feeling the cold and rain even though i have a cover,not beign able to dream,cause i cannot sleep, anxious day to day wondering what the next will bring,its rather adventourous than crazy though.no matter how bad,its never the worse,but still, fuck you "amerika". (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 6th, 2008
3:19 am	The Season Of The Abyss theres many of things that can be said of my life,like living in a cell with thin wall's,feeling the cold and rain even though i have a cover,not beign able to dream,cause i cannot sleep, anxious day to day wondering what the next will bring,its rather adventourous than crazy though.no matter how bad,its never the worse,but still, fuck you "amerika". (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008
2:05 pm	Thankful for YOU i am thankful for all those in my life that lift me up, even by smiling when i lift them up, i havent much time to write but thanksgiving was mellow with a lover and my grams, really great is all i will say.i think i am going to post some of my writings soon on here that i do with a real pen and paper one day, its so much better.still houseless, arcatas way of sayng homeless. i hope that will change soon as tommorow i meet with an awesome person that will hopefully rescue me from my misery, i cant wait to have the solitude of my own room again, especially to think and write more, with that i am thinking of majoring in journalism, who knows? well al for ow, you know how to reach me..... namaste (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2008
4:42 pm	its funny on myspace you attempt to go into a group wich displays music that you like and hope to meet people into the music and politics it stands for and you get poser ass douchebag lames talking shit, i guess i shouldnt expect much from the internet, i wish there was more elite groups out there for punk,crust and ect., that when ever the moderator seen homophobic,racist or exist content from users they whould get automatic deletion, dont bother telling me this is a free country and they have the right to say what they want, cause for one, it ISNT a free country, for two if you think its okay to let people say what they want even though it is hurtful to a music based movement you can fuck right off. (Comment on this)
1:14 am	late nights,early mornings no home,economics fucked,blah,blah....victims of capitalism,no escape, sick all the time,no healthcare,never had a chance in this cruel amerikkkan society.same story everyday,fuck it,lifes fucked,no more pretending,not another one of your rant's about lost love,just no love for your fucked up system!no justice,no hope,fuck the world. Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Monday, November 10th, 2008
4:04 am	life is crazy still houseless,homeless, without my own room,whatever you wanna call it,but i have been so blessed to have freinds and family to be with, very lucky indeed, so i know it, dont need any reassurance,ok? alot is gone on, care to hear? myspace me. miss alot of you,if you miss me write me,i whould apprciate it, im still here,where are you? love you,hope to have a place and number soon, keep in touch (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
2:14 pm	Life on the run im not sure how many people go to live journal, but i posted a blog on my myspace talking about my living situation, i am currently living in between my sisters place and other close freinds, i havent a contact number that i feel i can give out respectfully at the moment, but i get on the internet about once a day except for sundays and mondays.anyway just go to my myspace page www.myspace.com/lavluvly or my e-mail .... wantbfree@yahoo.com to send me a message,thanks and take care all. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
2:52 am	Writer's Block: A Posthumous Oscar for Joker? Do you think Heath Ledger deserves the Oscar for his role in the Dark Knight? Submitted By quinnpuddin View 501 Answers HE IS THE ONLY REASON WORTH SEEING THAT MOVIE,FUCK YES HE DESERVES IT! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 10th, 2008
9:46 pm	writing i dream that all those good times, those beautiful faces,that dont mend no more,could reunite and we could all live happily ever after, oh how happy i whould be if the misery and torment of all of you and me whould dissapear. deaths,fights and dying inside, all of my freinds all of you, i love you,i miss you,those good days,those good times,those who mad me feel so fucking good inside! now all i feel is anxiety,and apathy.not wanting to feel locked to the cages of deccadence, unable to really be free and be me, not beign abale to escape this false reality. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 11th, 2008
12:48 am	THIS WHOLE WORLD IS FUCKED! only cause its so beautiful, and the ones i love are suffering so much everyday, from my famila in norte califas,to my family in iraq,not the soilders eigther,although i heard a true saying recently"all wars are civil wars,cause all men are brothers".....this of course goes to all my sisters as well. fire in the hills, will the next water to put it out be a tsunami from the coast? the world is dying,to be born again. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2008
2:00 am	Getting bitten up! mosquitos suck, so does my brain, im tired of feeling like a cry baby on here,but i am in the end, waa waaing all the time, too many worries, wants, regrets making me sad,feel like i dont conenct wit anyone, all the ones i love are so dissconected themselves and i understand.....sigh (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 5th, 2008
6:50 pm	ALOT,AND THEN NOTHING AT ALL. people wonder and ask me "what have you been up to? how are you? NOT FUCKING GOOD but is there anything good, anybody doing well? if so stay away from me youll only piss me off and make me envious, and if your doing so bad you cannot get yourself out of your shit hole, especially stay the fuck away from me! i cannot save you. my uncle and father figure died drowning in a boating accident on the Klamath in may.i cant find my heart, if you see it on the ground all shivered up bleeding with flesh torn up and ripped like a abortion scene, please throw it in the trash can so it can have a dignified burial. my landlord is selling the home ive lived in for 2 years, so i will be homeless in august, that whouldnt be so bad if my ass wasnt already bleeding from having my soul torn threw in may. Current Music: witch hunt-all torn up(from ep. blood red states) (Comment on this)
Monday, December 3rd, 2007
1:47 am	need to right everytime i just need to write more, open up more, take a risk and take a chance. i am scared of that storm only cause i want to breathe,those who know me know why that is so,literally no poetry here, so the wind is below and i am kind of in confusion to it all, why all my loved ones seem so far away from me? racing thoughts that cannot be explained, i just hope my dream of the rain dosent come true.its really always the bigger spectical that gets to me and i want to try to hide it some where.waiting for the winter to make its way.im blessed to have her. i still get lonley without them. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 25th, 2007
7:54 pm	horse with no name when im stoned its just this slow but i need the this pace or im gunna blow! (Comment on this)
Friday, August 10th, 2007
4:57 pm	desperate cry for change......... latley ive felt so torn between the dark and the light. nothing seems quite right, i feel sick spiritualy all the time. and there are wonderful people around me, i cant see to feel them. more later (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 19th, 2007
4:46 pm	80% freak yall...LMFAO! According to experts, I am : 80% Kinky Take the Kinky Quiz at JokesUnlimited.com (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 2nd, 2007
12:28 pm	yep,this is me alright! <td align="center"> joey -- [noun]: A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td> (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
5:22 pm	i dont wanna miss her...... every moment i have is spent engulfed in samsaric seas and inhaling potent black fog.slavery to the exsistence of unseen opressers.paying the price over and over again when your far bakrupt.is there anything thats real? is it neverending pain we must all feel? nobody will care in the end and i suppose i will follow,but im on the path of self destructon as it is and been sailing with no paddle. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
8:07 pm	how can you feel.... simlutaneously,sad,sick,lonley,depressed,drained,tired,awake,hyper,horny,then sad?????.....the brain is a killer! (Comment on this)